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I have early access to Deviant Art's new Eclipse (website redesign) as a Beta Tester, and they have taken out A LOT of features, including DA Profile custom boxes. Thus, save the words/information on your profile custom boxes, before they move everyone to the new website design. My art to do list is on my profile, so I am making a copy on my journal!


Warning: This is a legit to-do list for me. I might even add my grocery list on here if I feel like it.
1.  CM - Koji for LaughButts by MaximumDoodie

2. Draw a Tentacle-haired women/human tutorial for :iconronkeyroo:

3. Draw :icontofuproductionz: Goten x Trunks (cause you know you ship it too!)

5. Start the Super Babysitter series of "normal" black-haired baby sitter taking care of superheroes' children (they love him, and he takes care of them back, evil should not pick a fight with baby sitter)

6. Draw two grown office men, on lunch break, chasing after ice cream truck on a bike
Title: Still a Kid

7. Try drawing like :iconzephyravirgox: at one point! I have his permission! 
References: :thumb446715213:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=69yzhL…
Title: Evil Wings

8. Draw a big palate challenge picture using specific colors
References:  Palette Challenge [Closed]Choose a character and a number! GOGOGO!!!
Check this challenge on tumblr or fb or here on DA
Bullet; Red Bullet; Orange Bullet; Yellow Bullet; White Bullet; Pink Bullet; Purple Bullet; Blue Bullet; Green Bullet; Black Bullet; Red       
  Palette Challenge by kaminenee

9. Draw “Apartment Complex 275” fanart with different complex tenants doting and protecting Kai
Reference: z.mhcdn.net/store/manga/12921/…
Title: Can We Take It Home?

10. 2 characters connected by same wire (both wearing headphones)
Reference: z.mhcdn.net/store/manga/12921/…
(Could be fanart for BIOS manga you want to start)
Reference for manga: www.htmlgoodies.com/beyond/ref…

11. Inspiration: 24.media.tumblr.com/add8208804…

12. Draw a picture/comic strip based off this poem: www.fictionpress.com/s/3179293…
13. Draw a emotional hugging scene
Reference: 38.media.tumblr.com/6a7a7ccfa9…

14. Draw BIOS fanart with character (administrator) with complicated wires in headphones
Reference: s3.amazonaws.com/ksr/assets/00…

15. Teacher: Satoshi, wake Hibiki up. / Satoshi: Hibiki, wake up. / Description: Japanese classes don’t give a fuck. (Could be Class 2B reference?)
Reference: upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia…

16. Cherik fanart with Charles with metal threatening him (Reference: 25.media.tumblr.com/9ac772c373…) and Eric with mind/hands threatening him

17. “What would you like to eat, daughter?” Crazy amazing Vietnamese cuisine, I take the Pringles 

18. HAHAHHAHAHA  The 100 Theme Challenge List 01:iconrioyukiix::icongrelly: THE THEME LIST 01 :icongrelly::iconvanitytheechidna:
Here is the original challenge list. There are more out there or you can make your own. Let the games begin!
001. Introduction
002. Love
003. Light
004. Dark
005. Seeking Solace
006. Break Away
007. Heaven
008. Innocence
009. Drive
010. Breathe Again
011. Memory
012. Insanity
013. Misfortune
014. Smile
015. Silence
016. Questioning
017. Blood
018. Rainbow
019. Gray
020. Fortitude
021. Vacation
022. Mother Nature
023. Cat
024. No Time
025. Trouble Lurking
026. Tears
027. Foreign
028. Sorrow
029. Happiness
030. Under the Rain
031. Flowers
032. Night
033. Expectations
034. Stars
035. Hold My Hand
036. Precious Treasure
037. Eyes
038. Abandoned
039. Dreams
040. Rated
041. Teamwork
042. Standing Still
043. Dying
044. Two Roads
045. Illusion
046. Family
047. Creation
048. Childhood
049. Stripes
050. Breaking the Rules
051. Sport
052. Deep in Thought
053. Keeping a Secret
054. Tower
055. Waiting
056. Dange

(maybe comic; it is going to have to be if I actually want to finish it)

19. Dead Koji, sad girl, Psyche says cat!  Caprixa by momijigirl

20. Draw incredibly epic and passionate Berserk fanart (Griffith and Gutts with surroundings/the sides around them when see fit)
References:
www.twilightvisions.com/berser…
www.twilightvisions.com/berser…
Title: You're Mine

21. ONE DAY: Roommate Series/Yaoi ideas:
- Gene and Finny (A Separate Peace) type of relationship (blend of Tai & Rune's relationship) 
- Slice of Life & Growing Up (Learning, Growing up together) - start off with little boys
- Adoptee and Adopter (teenage boys) relationship

22. Watch Out Watchers (giftart for ever 100 watchers)

23. Girl eating giant watermelon alone (forces house burglar to eat with her) 

24. Boy who's hot but thinks he's not (fairy godmother gives him normal-looking nose)

25. Girlfriend/wife throws unplugged toaster into tub with husband in it (boyfriend/husband teases her)

26. Boy kisses other boy while playing Xbox (other boy surprised)

27. Little girl with giant gun

28. "You wanna know what I think?" "No."

29. Boy x Boy dating game disguised as girl-getting game (friend, rival, girl character happens to be boy)

30. *Wearing multiple watches* "Now, I'll never be late!" "It doesn't work that way!"

31. Really muscled hand trying to open pickle jar

32. Trying out different bacon-flavored dog food. "You've been trying out dog food?!"

33. Legend of Dragoon OC designs

34. Draw your variation of Code Lyoko characters (especially William)

35. Family photo: Female Slenderman + Slenderman = Octopus Monster Child (makes sense) 

36. Make opposite-gender version of Teen Titans

37. Draw elementary boy playing music that erupts in undead band (in background) to class 

38. Title: You're getting rain all over my homeewooorrrkkkkkkfd;jjaff@@!!! - "You have summoned us. We are at your bidding." 

39. Mermaid in bathtub, little kid happily looking at her with sand shovel and bucket (friends)

40. I can’t friggin figure out genders of OCs on DA!

41. Sims 2 emotion commands ("Read Story" for kid who had nightmare)

42. Girl and boy roles switched

43. Rise Of The Guardians (late artwork; shut up!) (Poker, Al Capone, gangster version)

44. Draw Banana Fish fanart (soft shounen-ai is fine with me) – AND A LOT MORE AFTER THAT IS OKAY TOO!

45. Little boy is told grandma will never come back to life again, so he creates the zombie virus / Zombie Apocalypse - Life Support - "Oh, look! Grandma is alive!"

46. Fake android hugging his fake dog. Isn't that fake love? THAT'S DEEP SHIT. ;__;

47. "Sacrifice," superman-like character saves girl (keeps up boulder up); girl comes back with giant elephant to save man
Reference:  119. Love is... Picking Me Up by hjstory

48. Demonic perverted priest and his little boy assistant 

49. "Fox Spirit & Boy": Boy prays to alter/fox spirit for family, and fox spirit takes care of him (with rest of fox friends) - only children can see fox spirit - boy returns as adult to bring his family that can coincidentally see fox too (good people)

50. Slice of Life: normal highschool boys kissing near bed in one of their room sports feel) (silent, calm)

51. Young mercenaries (based off of manga Ares, could just be Ares fanart) - scared painter boy

52. Big guy taking pink bubble bath - "Why do you have a camera?" 

54. Drunk banter: playing scrabble for longer than expected

55. Draw Syberia fanart after looking at some awesome game screenshots online (or just suffer/play through the whole game again, you dope!), sketches are cool too!

56. Draw some freaking awesome Gantz fanart

57. Draw hot basketball versions of Rowdyruff Boys

58. It is so easy to say hi (wave hand at someone while smiling), but so hard to say goodbye (slumped head, no one there), black horizontal silhouette picture

59. Cute serious-looking EMS blond boy with tattooed arms, also hot "smoking" blond asian dude with beanie hat!

60. Draw boxers girl going through air vent while other girls with skirts and underwear scream

61. "What do you even like about me" says ill-confident girlfriend. Boyfriends tells her everything he likes about her (ex: breasts, smile, hair, etc) - Loving unconditionally 

62. Lanny walks her dog every night- serial murder in the neighborhood

63. My mark on the world: fbcdn-profile-a.akamaihd.net/h…

64. Dad tells me that complimenting mom's work is nice; I ask him "Why does she need it when she has been cooking for 20+ years?", compliment mom's cooking

65. Draw fashion designs based off specific fish species scalings (ex: koi fish)

67. 2 people with fire breath on each other (Description: Looks like someone needs some *puts on sunglasses* COOL MINTS.)

68. Head down-angel action scene, or tied up angel with bloody wings (rip them off) 
Reference:  Arinna by yuchenghong

69. Draw Maji's Masrur. ABS ABS ABS ABS ABS

71. Large lolita outfit. Hiding under it.

72. Koji on a unicycle in the rain

73. Make parady shoujo animatic with purposely badly voice acted (ask from audience)

74. Magical scenery inside snow globe, and you want to be a part of it. But getting in means you have to break the globe, and the snow falls out, and the magic disappears.


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[4] RANTS

43 min read
12/15/18

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I am back, guys! Finals week is finally over for my first semester of graduate school for Masters in Strategic Communication and Leadership (they teach you communication, politics, healthcare, leadership, etc), so I am officially back on DeviantArt for Winter Break until January 7, when school starts again! Expect more stupid pictures for now (another day's hard work being active on DA)!

I finished writing a final Strategic Communication Campaign for DeviantArt with a calendar outline for when to implement each change to improve their confusing/inconsistent communication channels.



I know, you cannot get more academic than writing an 16 page paper about the logistics of an art website you draw naked ladies on. I was considering writing the campaign on Hentai Foundry, just to be funny, but I get in trouble enough in my Communications department (or do I? You do not know until you really hit that ceiling. And then you try to blast through it and really write your essays on crazy stuff to freak out your teachers).

One of the essays I had to write and present for Advanced Leadership was supposed to be on an iconic leadership figure, and everyone was presenting leaders like Obama, Gandi, Oprah, Susan B. Anthony, and I stood up and presented:



For my presentation's "attention getter", I picked several people in the audience to read out iconic serial killer notes by the Golden State Killer (a suspect was recently found this year), Zodiac Killer, and Jack the Ripper. I then proceeded to explain why Ted Bundy was able to kill so many women with his charisma, charm, and leadership skills. Many of the skills we relish in famous leaders can be the same used by successful serial killers. Just because you have leadership skills does not mean you have the same morals as others. So people should not revere someone simply because they have charm and charisma. What are they actually saying vs doing? Healthy skepticism is key!

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^ One of my favorite notes (by Zodiac Killer), lol.

I like graduate school much more than undergraduate because of the smaller class sizes, teachers that speak to you like a colleague instead like an annoyed child, critical thinking encouraged in discussions, and essays with flexible topics for prompts instead of hours studying for a multiple choice test.

So if you have considered graduate school after undergraduate, I recommend it. But do not choose a graduate program unless there are good teachers, and you get testimonials from past or current students. It is such a high risk to choose a Masters program you will hate because even if it sounds prestigious, the teachers are awful and treat you like crap. That is a lot of academic time being treated like crap. 



I have met many interesting people in Masters, people who actually care (WHAT A STRANGE SPECIES)! I am one of the few who come from a sciences background, so I feel they teach me a lot about a foreign emotion: compassion. They say if you read a textbook enough, you might gain it.

I am usually the one in the class who brings an enormous amount of food to eat. The Strategic Communications teacher once was like, "So the free market has huge social and political ramifications on public demand for branded- OH MY GOD, BUU HAS A GIANT BAG OF ALMONDS."



^ Dr. Fenner is a hilarious teacher (sometimes a little political because politics is his hobby, but many professors have an opinion). I might consider adding his sarcastic humor if I become a teacher.

Strategic Communication is also, for some strange reason, the most boring class to me because I understand everything (*play obnoxious violin music*). I participate in discussions fine, I present, I finish group projects. I sit right in front of class, and I draw. I DRAW A LOT. NO ONE STOPS ME. In fact, when people are uninterested in the discussion, they just watch me draw instead. I will upload some of the sketches to DA soon!



^ Dr. Du Pre is the chair of the Communications Masters program and a Distinguished Professor, because she goes above and beyond for her students. I once could not finish an essay and turned in what I had, and she opened up revisions for me for half the points I lost for the incomplete essay. What a doll! That does not happen often. Usually, the higher the professor, the meaner they are sometimes.

Forgiveness teaches people more than anger and guilt. I have this dream of being nice and fun like her....and I tried. Did not work. It was a dream that lasted 2 weeks. I gave up. I will go back to being cynical and sarcastic. I have an established skill set in that. One thing Dr. Du Pre teaches everyone in her Advanced Leadership class is that "good leadership" is subjective and the same leadership style can be rated 2 in one organization and 10 in another. It has a lot to do with what is needed in the organization. Specializing in what you are good at gives you a certain style, and you can be irreplaceable in one, but not as useful in another. Everyone has potential, even if they have a different style than you!



^ My College of Business marketing office, where I work as a graphic designer. The walls are plastered with my dumb designs. On the right is a birthday card designed like an Instagram post for my marketing boss, Annina, who always has to leave work abruptly because her son loves to get sick and pick fights with kids at the day care.

This Fall semester was the last time I work for the College of Business as their graphic design graduate assistant (graduate assistants get tuition waivers/assistance). I wanted to stay for a long time, but I had to leave. Annina was getting weird, overly stressed, and more finicky about everything as the years went by. This is an experience I feel many will go through. You have good memories somewhere, but it does not fit your interests/values/priorities anymore. sigh 

The College of Business, no matter how much I attempted to connect with everyone, was political, sometimes dramatic, people talked behind each others backs, and there was a lot of fake smiling. LOTS OF IT. Having issues/emotions was usually seen as a sign of weakness, and there was gossip when things were going wrong even though it was OBVIOUS things are going wrong for certain departments even if they say "It is fine" in public. Lying just creates more gossip, which is what they do to each other...ALL TH TIME! I did not even know WHAT was truth. I was just glad I worked for marketing, so I knew what was truth. But then we were creating designs/social media posts to make things look better than they were. I was essentially working in an office of lies!

MY VALUES AND PRINCIPLES WERE BEING SOILED ON EVERYDAY, BY MY OWN ACTIONS!



Don't get me wrong. There were great people there. There was Giovanni and Vitor, Brazillian international students who worked hard to get their business degrees in America. There are Annina, who was peppy and nice. There was Dr. Krieger. Dr. Fountain. So many nice people! And many of the great ones were fed up with this fakeness too, and they stayed away from it. But I cannot ignore these types of things!

I felt that even if I was one person, I would help in small ways to make this college better: I would develop relationships, smile authentically, be an example and ask advice from people so they are more likely to confide in me, I wrote personal letters to employees/staff/other GAs to tell them they did great at certain things, I graphic designed/did videography/did photography for all the College of events I engaged in, I hosted free graphic design workshops for College of Business students, mentored for entrepreneurship competitions, recommended the MBA program and the college to people I knew, I even spoke as a marketing specialist for a technology summit and a student entrepreneur panel representing the College of Business, I got put on the newspaper representing the college, and
LO AND BEHOLD THE COLLEGE OF BUSINESS DEAN HAS A PROBLEM WITH ME!  Undertale - Full of Angry Chara Screams 

Annina had to persuade the Dean to let me graphic design for the College of Business graduate assistant (GA). The Dean said "Why would I give a tuition waiver to someone who is not from the College of Business?" Annina said "Because Buu is engaged with the college, competes, goes to all the events, reaches out to faculty/staff/students, works hard, and is passionate. That is why she deserves to be a graduate assistant here!" The Dean let me stay. However, this was around the time he would come to the office and say he was SO happy I was working for the college, and they could really use my talents, and he is so assured whenever he sees me at events. He seemed like he was unnaturally complimenting me out of nowhere, so it was suspicious, but I said thank you. Later, I realize he did not want me to have the GA in the first place.

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I wanted to sign up to work for the Center for Financial Literacy (Center under the College of Business) as a credit and finance counselling tutor for students. There are so many students with loan debt, and they still do not know how to use a credit card or budget. This was an important job, and the hiring manger said I was the most qualified and the center's director and sponsor both looked at my resume and said "She has talent." I was hired me on for next semester. I was super excited because I love tutoring and helping students!

On the same day, the hiring manager called me again and said, "The Dean told me NO on hiring you because you are not from the College of Business. I am confused, because the Center for Financial Literacy helps students all over campus, not just College of Business. I asked if I can just hire you on as a regular student worker instead of a GA, and he still said no. He told me I have to find someone else."

There are students working for the College of Business who are not College of Business. There is a cyber-security major, a communications major, a graphic design major. I am from Communications and Biology! But I cannot get this job even though I was most qualified because of a rule the Dean made up at the last minute!

Some people told me they understand why he wants a College of Business student to have the position and that it is nothing personal. This makes sense, if that were the case! That Dean comes up to me saying he is happy I work for the College, but behind the scenes, he is blocking me from working as a graphic designer behind the scenes without coming to me directly. Later, when I want to transition to helping students from the whole university through a financial center under the College of Business (the college DOES NOT fund the center, so there is no financial dependency on listening to the college), he steps in to tell them he does not want me hired because "She is not from College of Business" even though there are already students who are not from the college working there originally? That rule was not on the job description I signed up for, and I do not think that rule exists anywhere on paper at all. He specifically enforced it when I signed up. I do not not assume personal vendetta easily. BUT THERE IS EVIDENCE FOR THIS ONE. Why would he have an issue with me? BECAUSE I AM ACTIVE AND KNOWN ON CAMPUS. I am not known because I schmooze; PEOPLE KNOW ME BECAUSE I WORK HARD IN EVERY STUDENT POSITION I HAVE EVER BEEN IN, NO MATTER WHAT DEPARTMENT! Otonashi Shouting Icon 

I know so many people that he may potentially assume I just take jobs from any student of any college because "I can", to which if he had half a brain and was watching, he would realize that I am passionate about business and entrepreneurship, and that is why I am signing up for another College of Business job. Not because I think I can take anyone's job. And even if I am not from their college, I am still an asset that has proven myself to help College of Business students even though I am not one of them. Logically, you would hire me as a return on investment for your students, at least. But no!
Squidward-Sexy (Sexy Time) Thus, I spoke to the OLD Dean of the College of Business (I despise using connections, but if I want something, I am fighting for it). He is nice, cares about students, and knows how active I am. He was appointed as the head of the Center for Entrepreneurship after he retired as the College of Business Dean, and I sent him an email to please vouch for me to be a tutor.



That's right. I pitted the old Dean against the new Dean. AND HE. SAID. YES.



I still do not know the verdict for this fight, but I just want to mention something to everyone:

DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU YOU DO NOT BELONG SOMEWHERE, AFTER YOU PUT IN THE WORK TO BELONG.

If you put your talents, your energy, your questions, answers, mentorship, your life force into a college that is not your own, surely, that means you care about that college. And someone tells you you cannot sign up for jobs there because you are not not one of them, when no such rules exists to begin with? I do not care if it is the Dean, Chair, Director, janitor, student of a college, a dog who says it. If you want something, you HAVE to fight for it.

The fact that this is even happening to begin with is ridiculous. And the fact they are not coming straight to me with an issue about ME is the most frustrating part. Having so many levels to talk to about SOMEONE ELSE'S JOB/FUTURE? I am sorry, that, in itself, is impersonal, complicated, and leads to misunderstandings! For business majors, 

I was painstakingly whining to my friends about it, and one of them, who is faculty, told me, "Hey, did you hear about the College of Business Dean stepping down at the end of the year?" and I said "WHAT?!"
 


This douche bag Dean told the college 4 days ago that they will not have a Dean by the end of this year. That is 2 weeks away! And he is pitching a fit about a student getting a Spring job under a college he does not even control in the Spring! Some people said he may be stepping down because he is old school and not that popular with his decisions. They said maybe he is stepping down because it was too much for him. I do not freaking care why he is stepping down, as long as he does not control the college anymore, and the person who replaces him is not so exclusive that they would keep non-College of Business students out. They have so many diversity events in the College of Business. I wonder if they ever listen.
I ACTUALLY SECRETLY HOPE I AM ONE OF THE REASONS THE DEAN STEPPED DOWN, TO BE HONEST. Philip Fry (I'm not sure if) [V2] 

Anyways, there is my fun time rant about school/work! Sometimes, I want to make this stuff up, but I can't. Many years from now, I am going to rant to you guys about how I am having beef with the Chief of Staff at the White House because of a wheat debate, I just know it. SOMEONE GIVE ME A SIMPLE STORY TO PONDER LIKE:

"Butts, today, I ate a bagel, and man, was it good. Should I buy more?"

Why, yes, you should, simple story man!

🎄 2018 SantaButt Livestream (1 request per person) will be on December 22, 2018 at 12 PM CST! I will send a reminder closer to the date. Come talk to me because we have not talked in forever. And think about something to make us stay up 12 hours more after the livestream is over, BECAUSE WE ALL KNOW REUNIONS Do NOT LAST FOREVER....SO MAKE IT LAST FOREVER.

Expect artwork soon about random crazy stuff to symbolize my zest for life also!

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7/30/18



I have noticed how those that claim to be victims of rape & sexual harassment (ex: #MeToo), racism (ex: Black Lives Matter), discrimination (anyone who points out a potential motive as an actual motive), etc are sided with no evidence now, leading to men, women, social figures, and people alike to be wrongly accused and then shamed and insulted into apologizing, not because they they are "sorry", but because people are stalking, degrading, insulting, and cyber bullying them into doing so. It is not about what one does; it is about how it makes people feel now. I believe that is a dangerous way to judge a person's character and see if something is "right" or "wrong." Things that do not offend are right, and things that do offend are wrong.

Something controversial is good because it makes you question outside of your comfort zone. Being afraid of being outside of your comfort zone, much less insulting others for making you consider outside of it is weak and has you grow slower and more sheltered than others. No wonder when you step outside of it, you are so angry and confused. You have been involved so much in your world, you forgot to look at others.

I want to extend the prompt more personally to explain why I know this is not the most positive path to go.

It is good to make sure we do not repeat history and not give each other a voice, but we do not have to relinquish natural due process and hearing both sides of the story as a result. That will lead to not an equal footing of voices; it will curtail FAVOR from one side to the other. That assures there is more anger. When you listen to those most loud, angry, and insulting, you will invite more. Do you find yourself submitting to "Well, they are allowed to act this angry/vindictive/crazy because of their experience"? THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR HATRED WHETHER YOU ARE A VICTIM OR PERPETRATOR. If you want to persuade, do not do it by demeaning and stepping on others while screaming that "others" should not demean and step on others. I think some are so angry that they do not notice the hypocrisy.

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^ This ganging up on people happens emphatically on both sides. The heavy accusation of being different and the odd one out is used to alienate both sides. Do not be easily alienated. Perhaps it is not who is on your side, but how you get them on your side. -By telling them the people on their side are tricking them? Or telling them you understand and will be there for them through this? I thin both sides want to hear that.

However, in this "I am offended", and "I am the person who offended" game, it becomes a confusing switch and race between who is offended first, followed by who is offended more to be able to stake the stand for most importance. Poor argument and a terrible taste in people's mouths is left. It makes it about the person who "lost" and the person who is "taking power for what they lost." I have seen two African Americans fight on the streets of Brooklyn on what it is to be black, and how the other does not represent it, even though both come from the same roots, are near the same age, and both care for racial rights. For these two to be on opposite sides and make fun of each other's chemically treated hair color for being "non-black" and insult each other's backgrounds for "not coming from the same streets of Brooklyn and having a dad who did marketing work) makes me feel that something has gone wrong with this generation. It has become more about being different not just being good, but something to defend to the point where you start insulting those for NOT being different (or the same) like you. How ironic that you are now using the same concept/ideology to make people feel bad and obey as the "strong power" you are fighting against. How astray the movement for !@#$# ACCEPTANCE %&^#@$ has become.

Less about acceptance. More about WHAT to accept.

If you can accept the world can hold a vast number of opinions, why do you think there ONE truth for a problem that involves us all?

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I can share a story of how I can connect to this easily offended generation:

I used to be a really angry child myself. My brother would always bully me, and when I came to my parents, they said "He is older and a boy, so he knows better." When I got my little sister, I thought I could bully her. But 3rd times the charm. For the 3rd child, my parents were more caring, more careful, and told me not to bully her. I got even angrier. So my suffering is excused as "how the world works", but for someone in my same family, she gets defense and is told she should not be insulted? Where was that defense for me? That made me even angrier at her. I was impassioned to make sure my years of suffering were justified, so I made my relationship with my sister closer to the world that I was told understood (Why did I spend years waiting for this moment if I could not do it myself?). I tried to hit and threaten her like my dad did. I teased and insulted her like my brother did, without any mercy or defense. I did not let anyone defend of support her, like no one did for me. She did not need it, or deserve it. The fact my brother was shielding me from her made me even angrier; you dare to defend someone who was in my exact situation? When you were the perpetrator yourself? I did not get an apology; I get someone who had turned 180 in their viewpoints for someone else, but did not give the courtesy for a "sorry" to the person you had inflicted it upon. Now, I was called a "monster" by the very person who did the same to me.

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There was a moment when I was so angry with how the world did not work within the puzzle piece of my life that of course, I fought for what was fair to me. At one point, it got so out of control that when my parents went to the store and left the 3 of us at home, I immediately went into a rage and tried to hit my sister, for nothing. She was crying and running away, my brother was pushing me away and hiding my sister in a room, and he locked the door. I could hear my sister sobbing behind the door, but I wanted to hit her nonetheless. I hated that door that was keeping me from getting inside. I told him to let me in, and said "No, not until you calmed down and promised you will not hit her." And I stopped slamming on the door and said I was calm and I will not hit her. And he said "You sure? You're absolutely sure?" And I said "Yes. I'm calm. I won't hit her." And he opened the door, and I pushed him aside and started wailing on my sister. It was at that moment that my mother and father came home and saw how angry I was and had me stand in the corner of the house for hours to make me think about what I did.

To me, the anger was over once I looking at a white wall, not my relatives. I comprehended how much I had let these people who had put me in front of this wall affect how I saw the world, enough to show how angry I was at such a young 10 year old girl. My sister would write "I am sorry" in the dirt every time she would offend me. It was about me, not her. I was offended over everything she did. To me, she was proof I had lived an unfair life, and I was supposed to accept that with no its or buts that my time was over to complain. It was someone else's generation or time to have better. How could that be? Being offended, hurt, angry, and vindictive was all about me trying to figure out my life. But in the process, I hurt the people that were attempting to fix themselves just like me.

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I realize the only way to fix this was to get out of my parents' circle of influence and not let them mold who I was anymore. I could continue to blame them like I did, admitting they had so much power over who I was ("angry, dramatic, unhappy Buu"), and be that person forever. Or break out, be skeptical, not accept their reasoning and rules as law, and separate myself from the unfair rules that bound me (all of a sudden, I was "creative, questionable, and skeptical Buu"). Instead of fitting into a world others molded for me, I would make my own. And if others contradicted it with their own bubble, I do not force them into my bubble like my parents did. I would ask them "Why do you think that?" and "Have you tried this?" and "Why do you feel that way?"

After all, I do not want the same happening to them as it was to me. That was a much more healthy reaction to suffering than I had had in a long time. Not only was I questioning what was wrong no matter how many times I was hit, but I was serving an example to others, by not hitting others by having an opinion differing from them. All of a sudden, I was courageously fighting more with the people who had directly caused my pain, not the people justifying it (random people who remind me of it, or are somehow benefiting from the bad rules. Why was it their fault that I was suffering? It is about me, not them. So do not blame them for what I am stilling working to fix with my own two hands)!

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When you hate yourself and you have not even worked through your own issues, because you are so busy once again finding power and love from the movement/people around you instead of loving yourself, you are not the best leader to change the world. I see it in some of these individuals in the media who are too broken, fragile, and angry to make a good argument on why things should not be the way they are. The rules and policies they inevitably affect reflect extreme desperation, absolution, and a search for change they do not understand themselves. We are letting people who were in my mindset when I was trying to angrily/blindly bang down the door to attack and shout at anyone, to make healthy and not bias/emphatic policy changes. It is bad not to listen to those suffering, but be wary when you are lletting emotional people decide who goes to jail, who gets the promotion, and who eats the last cake. The world can become as damaged and as angry. If you do not expect to tackle your problems before tackling the world, do not even waste your time being offended.

Attempting to change a world you do not understand shows an inability to adapt, insecurity in yourself to make a difference in your life, and a vindictive accusation of someone else being at fault, not you. I would not want someone like you being in charge, much less others with similar reasons to change the world.  Man throws up papers in frustration 

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I was afraid of asking for both sides of the story sometimes for large stories like #MeToo, especially when the accused said they would like to provide evidence it did not happen, and no one would listen (there have been women who have apologized and admitted it was a falsified accusation to get revenge, and the man is still at fault. Sound familiar, ladies?). When people are angry, no one wants to speak up. But you may not realize that that breeds even more contempt and hatred for the other side, who just want justice. I would rather ask for what I feel NEEDS to happen in the justice system between a rapist and raped victim than to be a default friend of those so blindly manipulated/swept away by the social movement of the time. If you cry rape but cannot maintain the mentality to fight to prove it because you are too traumatized, you are doing yourself or others girls/boys who do not prove it a favor. As a person looking at all of this news/legal/movement from afar, I affirm that is is better to inquire and have those with healthy skepticism on your side than to have those who believe there is "already a right side" (their own form of censorship/closing their eyes to make sure the world works in the way they saw it as). 

If you find yourself all of a sudden MUCH MORE SENSITIVE/easily offended by things relevant to your friends/people you see online/Tumblr, I hope you stop and comprehend where you are on the spectrum of helping your friend or just enabling a more fragile and unproductive culture of change.

If a person is innocent, they can prove it. Do not say "Why would they have to?" That is you already choosing a side, which inevitably leads to astray INjustice. And can be used on the other side.

If he did not rape her, prove it.

"He's my bro. Why would he have to?"

It does not matter if he/she is your Bro, posse, mother, sister, best friend or not. In this world, you either document yourself for times like this, or set yourself up for confusion and OTHER'S JUDGEMENT of WHAT YOU CAN MAKE FROM YOUR EXPERIENCE. And overcoming you mental state, even temporarily, is all the more important and will help you in the end.

Move that into policy change: you have to give an argument for why things can be changed in a healthy and productive way for both sides, the benefits to their side, the collaborations and contribution you and they can make. You have to follow up, be good, serve by example to show it is not as difficult, and listen/work in between the lines to make people happy. That is a policy change transition that can have social and political impact far more reaching than the quick attention-getting news headlines of another offended and angry millennial/liberal who did not order this sandwich and was offered a default sandwich that makes them feel stereotyped (in before that story happens).

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It took me years to repair my relationship with my sister (she is majoring in Nueropsychology now. That shows how messed up her childhood was, LOL). And it was her who brought up "Why did you hate my so much when we were little?", and I told her blatantly, "I was inflicting angry emotions of not being defended every time Billy bullied me, onto you. For years, Ba and Ma never helped me when I was hurt by Billy, and when they defended you and kept me from insulting you, I was even angrier. I am much better now, now that I am separated from Ba and Ma. I am sorry for that." She said "Oh, okay. Great. I just wanted to know. You were pretty scary." in a joking sarcastic voice. And I made a joke back. It took my sister to have that conversation, not me. Without her stepping up to get an answer directly from the person who caused her suffering, I do not know if those unanswered questions would get closure. "Why did you do it, and do you feel bad for it?" I am happy we are both individuals with the confidence to question, and the confidence to listen.

We took time. We did not throw paint and yell and demand it unnaturally. If we did, I do not think I would be honest when we tell each other "I love you" Heart (I have trouble saying that to anyone to be honest, but you get the point).  We gave each other a chance to speak. Why would you be with someone whose sole opinion reigns, and you should feel guilty for ever speaking over them because you did this one bad thing in the past, and they keep remind you of it? Forgiveness within reason. Anger within limits. A genuine want to understand will help you get answers instead of more blinding emotions.

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I do my best to follow a social regimen that I respect/enjoy; it actively gears me as much away from over-sensitivity and offendedness as I can help it. I just say it like it is: "Your hair looks raggedy today." I always appreciate those who can take others honestly and not take things personally. it shows they are out of their shell and ready for something else. Sometimes, I just test it out saying something blunt the first few hours I meet someone to see how they react. It is not about being callous. It shows an affinity to give a comment not meaning to offend but to inform bluntly, and it shows the ability to not be offended/personally insulted, which can lead to real deep conversations once you get past frail humanity. No, I do not have a lot of friends, but the ones that I do have are great.  That is a choice of influence I am making: making friends without hiding who you are, having fights but still having great dinners with critical conversations. Every day, I make choices that help lead me into a better version of myself and my surroundings. What about you?

I will not force others to follow my same path of thinking because others go through a different life. Even 2 twins can be completely different people, depending on what small experiences/thoughts they have separately.

As a result of my proactive humorous coping with life's issues, an established emphasis on the control I have on my life instead of others, doing what I love, ranting on DA journals, and reminding myself of who my "ideal" friends are (not who I am surrounded with at the moment), I can answer the question safely:

Am I pushing you to follow me or you get cyber bullied and get called a sexist racist because I am a female Asian with self confidence issues? I do not think so.

Now, to leave this rant, here is an accurate rant recap for those who have trouble reading past 5 sentences:

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I AM DRAWING A PICTURE. I WILL SUBMIT IT WHEN I FEEL LIKE ITTTTTTTTT MARUGHHH

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6/8/18

^ Extended Rant Above

 

I am not the only one who has been noticing this strange trend of Internet traumatized/triggered easily angered people who have not critically thought through their opinions, bleeding into real life media and "social movements"? Perhaps it is because we have a current US President that relishes in a chaotic environment, but in times of social trouble, it is all the more important to keep cool heads.

So let me emphasize that point by shouting at invisible people (I would like us all to not be and stay away from this):

1. If you believe in something so strongly that you have to impose hatred/violence/social threats to finally be heard, you not only sound extreme, but also desperate. 

Look within for why you think the way you do before you judge what is inside of others. Many of the demons in you are also in them, and what makes you a good person can also be found in them. If you let one thing break your ability to make friends with people, you will walk a rickety tight rope constantly breaking and hurting/disappointing you. That tight rope was your comfort zone, your social circle, and how large your social mind decided to be.  

What type of example are you serving for your form of "tolerance"? Is it for everyone, and you fight when things are wrong within reason, or is it blind fighting because YOU FEEL SO LITTLE FOR SOME THINGS...AND FEEL SO MUCH FOR OTHERS? If it is the latter, fix your problems before you tackle the world's problems. It is all right to fight, but necessary to know when to stop, or else you cause more misunderstanding and damage than good.

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And no. You do not tackle the world's problems before you tackle your own and say "Well, if the world would just fix this, then I would be able to-"

Do not blame what you do not have in your hands right now on people not giving you more of it. Self pity is the greatest form of self-given privilege that is never quenched. Stop blaming. Start doing.

2. People who are the victims of this hatred, whoever is right or wrong, do not deserve to be beaten, down trotted, stalked, attacked, or shouted at violently and coerced to apologize for what others have done instead of them.

Is asking for a CEO of a company to give up his/her years of service because a smaller branch messed up really the most efficient way to fix the issue? If your phone is not sending pictures very well, you take your phone to the repair shop and figure out why it is acting up. You do not throw it away despite the good parts of it and buy an entirely new phone and not expect the problem to ever come back. How inefficient is that?

Does a "privileged" white person with a middle class/higher class family that loves them and helps them pay for college- have to feel guilt for his hair color and ethnicity, just like you have to feel guilty or ashamed of your dark skin, curly hair, or slavery background? Why apologize for who you are? Correlation is not causation. Why apologize for what your ancestors have done (when you were not there) to people who demand it (who were not there), or take the blunt of those who, vice versa, use the past to tell us we will "always be slaves" or "niggers" or "lower class"? 

Since when did anyone, whether white, black, red, yellow, purple, etc deserve hatred, no matter whether they voted for Trump or sent a tone-deaf tweet? Noticing the double standard in the way you shun one person by defending another through the same means they shunned who you are defending takes true equality vision, requiring looking at the situation from a more unbiased point of view. Without it, you are IN the mess, not cleaning it up.

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3. Do not believe that a cockroach is so disgusting that it gives grounds for nuking the whole house. STOP. BEING. SO. EXTREME. 

Who else are you affecting in your quick burst of emotion to make sure YOU GOT YOUR POINT ACROSS?

When they punished Roseanne, they punished the other actors too. By simply being associated. The episodes were written and were highly rated. The rest of the cast were brilliant. Exclude Rosanne (Dan and her already had a divorce), and you still would have had a strong cast that people were willing to see without the main "star". Why did you let one bad apple destroy the rest of the apples? What message did that send? "We do not condone hate speech or racism." No, the message was "You make one mistake on your personal account that makes us look bad, you are getting fired, and so are your friends and your entire show, no matter how much hard work you put into it, or how many ratings it will get."

If that were your parent, what type of panicky, frantic child would you become? I would spend more time making sure I did not make mistakes than trying things out and finding a decent career. 

THAT TAUGHT YOU FEAR, NOT TOLERANCE. 

Now, people are even more afraid to speak up on social media when they represent show/series. That was NOT the message that was supposed to be sent. But it was the one that showed. If you are going to make a choice out of fear, find a way to reduce it, or you WILL make one heck of a weak/sad choice for yourself, and everyone else.


^ Doesn't this picture make you feel nice? When was the last time you did this, even if you were scared? These are all different types of people, but you would put your hands on theirs and attempt to understand them anyways. And those who seek to understand first are more likely to be heard than those who jump in and explain what they think and...get ready to be disappointed.

 I have noticed those quickest to offend are so quick to be offended. And those quickest to judge are those most insecure about others judging them. 

Before you judge/tackle the world, look at yourself and the way you filter through your emotions. Do you siphon through it, identifying why before you think about what to say, or do you let your emotions CONTROL YOU?  Yes, I am blaming you. Because in the end, if you cannot control the world, you can control YOU. And it is about time someone, whether it is you or not, reminds you of that.

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^ Also, this is fuggin hilarious. I am Asian (sad that I have to say that, but if I was not Asian, some would say I am being "racist." -Which I am not being by laughing at this. I think you are being racist for prejudicing against me, assuming I do not understand what I am laughing at because I am not "that race", you racist sexist cis-gender illiterate motherfugger).

I have been in a semi-perpetual state of ill-confidence about the world because of this issue, and now, I feel better writing about it. You guys should write/express/meme out your feelings too. It helps. It is not like you guys are...ARTISTS or anything, right?! Now, I can go back to finishing my commissions, eating fish, signing up for internships, writing academic papers, and STRATEGICALLY starting fights with random strangers, as I do!
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Hope you guys have all been swell! I am answering DA comments and making pictures now to submit! 


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Breaking news! Butts has found a cool, exciting, definitely not-trying-to-kill-her artist that she feels should be blessed with a feature and interview! 

This is a DA Interview Journal, which spreads awareness of the artist, gives them a chance to explain their art/art style, and makes them feel special with exclusively written questions, only for them. You guys can ask them any questions afterwards!

(Artist interviews update ~about~ monthly, with a personal invite by exclusive Note.)


April 21, 2017
Adventure Time with the Straw Hat Pirates by Neodusk   BoTW: Prove Your Worth by Neodusk    Steven Universe: Mindbending Waterbending by Neodusk  Fandumb #85: Kojima Trolls the World by Neodusk  Fandumb #66: Splatoon Physics by Neodusk   
Behold the overly sarcastic comic-making neanderthal and recluse :iconneodusk: who I knew from back in Fanart Central (9+ years ago). I remember during my Summer breaks from high school, I would make a comic page, upload it, comment on his comics, and he would comment on mine. I literally connect Neodusk to the time frame I was developing my love of comic-making, and Neo stuck with it while everyone else gave up. I could tell he truly loved making comics and story writing. Here are some questions for him!

1. How long have you been drawing?

I’ve been drawing since I could hold a pencil—you know, literally what every other artist says when you ask them how long they’ve been drawing. Nobody’s ever like “oh, you know, two weeks ago.”

BUT, I can actually remember the first (traditional) comic I ever drew. I was maybe seven or something and I drew a fan comic of Calvin and Hobbes (though I’m not sure the concept of “fan comics” existed then, and if they did I certainly wasn’t aware of them).
The comic depicted Calvin dying, ascending to heaven, discovering that God is a giant chicken (kudos if you get the reference) and then awakening to realize it was all a dream. Upon informing his mother what he had experienced, she expressed doubt that heaven is where he would ultimately end up. Cut to a panel of Calvin descending an escalator into a fiery pit, and muttering, “Mom knows how to ruin a good childhood…”

I drew about five thousand more Calvin and Hobbes comics after that one, and to this day I don’t remember what happened to them.

2. What inspirations/factors influenced your adaptable cartoon comic style?

I have an adaptable comic style? I’d probably go with “inconsistent” or “fickle”. But, okay, rose-tinted glasses half full, I don’t know where my adaptable comic style came from. When I was a kid, I was super into newspaper comics. Then in middle and high school I was all about manga and anime. Then in college onward I became more interested in web comics and western graphic novels.

If anything, I guess you could say it’s because I’ve just had a lot of different influences over the course of my life. Even now, all I really do is just imitate other artists. If I have anything resembling a unique style, it stems from imprecisions in my ability to emulate those better than me. Like random, unwanted mutations in a pristine gene pool.

3. You have a peach salad, egg omelette, and SUPER SPICY EXTRA FLAMING HOT CRUNCHY CHEETOS! in front of you. You can only choose one. Which one do you choose, and why? Feel free to add existentialism and possibly a mental breakdown while thinking this through.

Well, if I’m following the advice of my doctor, I’d probably go for the egg-white-veggie omelet because it’s nutritious and contains protein and will do a better job filling me up and giving me long-lasting energy.

If I’m following the distorted desires of my shadow’s metaverse palace, I would eat all of the flaming hot cheetohs in three seconds and then scour the room for more and then go to the store to buy more when if I didn’t find any.

Also, the existentiality of your mental-breakdown-inducing question leads me to wonder if our beggars are bodies and our monarchs and outstretched heroes are the beggars’ shadows.

TWO OBSCURE SHADOW-RELATED CULTURAL REFERENCES IN ONE ANSWER. HIGH FIVE.

4. Do you prefer digital or traditional tools to draw?

 Ten million times digital. I’m noncommittal and prone to error by nature, so having an undo button and the option to adjust any detail at any given moment makes me much more comfortable when drawing. Major props to people who stick it out with the traditional arts, but I cannot handle the permanence and delicacy of that shiz-nat. Besides, we have to accept the digital age. Soon we will all be computer data streaming through the ether of the uni-net, exchanging thought-bits as we congregate in online cafes while sipping electric coffee.

Plus, digital just makes it easier to draw comics. Precise measurements, text tools, copy-pasting drawings for moment-to-moment panel transitions, etc. What am I supposed to use, a ruler? Ain’t nobody got time for that.

5. From the Avatar The Last Airbender/Legend of Korra world, what type of bender (or non-bender) would you be?

Oh, so just because I drew a hundred Korra comics and have cited ATLA as one of my favorite shows and constantly make avatar-themed polls featuring questions similar to the one you just asked, you ASSUME it’s appropriate to ask me a question about Avatar.

A waterbender. I’d be a waterbender.

It’s just too versatile to pick anything else. Unless MAYBE earthbending came with both metalbending and seismic sense. Then I’d consider earthbending. But, yeah, definitely one of those over being able to burn flammable materials or blow stuff around. Maybe if I were a harem anime protagonist I’d reconsider.

6. What do you struggle to draw (ex: hands, feet, realism, shoujo, birds, sad themes, water) the most? What could you do to improve?

I struggle with literally anything beyond drawing a cartoon face. Cartoon faces are the one thing I feel confident about being able to draw. Everything else requires 1000% more mental energy and time for me to feel comfortable with the final product.

Actually, what really gets my goat is anything that requires geometric precision. Straight lines, angles, symmetric designs—all that stuff both annoys and bores me. I like to draw things that are loose and organic and curvy. I think it’s why I’ve tended more towards a western “cartoony” comic style as the years went on.

I mean, if I wanted to get better at and feel more comfortable with drawing those sorts of things, I could probably practice more, use more references, draw more from life, and just generally be more earnest and diligent about becoming a better artist and overall more worthwhile human being.

But it’s haaaaaarrrrrrrrrrdddd…

I just have to find the patience. It’s probably buried somewhere along with my work ethic and my childhood fear of rocky road ice cream.

7. A cute anime girl comes running towards you saying, "Master! I have found you! ★ Tee hee! ★ I am yours to keep! Please let me fold your laundry and cook for you and be your loyal pet! ❤❤❤" What is the first thing you make her do?

Summon her friends. I need to determine if I’m in some shounen action comedy that heavily features fanservice, or a full-blown harem anime. I’d be fine with either.

Also, I’d learn firebending and airbending.

8. Break down the most important mechanics of an ideal game for you: good plot? Great graphics? Intensive characters? Good battle system? (You can give already existing games as examples, if you want!)

I assume you ask this because of my occasional video game/TV reviews that no one reads because they’re twenty pages long.
If we’re talking about my personal preferences, I get excited by games that use the interactive medium to tell a story. My favorite games are ones in which the gameplay is used to service a narrative and vice versa—Mass Effect, Persona, Uncharted, The Last of Us, The Walking Dead, Undertale, etc. I very much enjoy games which use story and character to contextualize gameplay, rendering it more meaningful, and which use gameplay to further my immersion in or influence my consideration of the narrative.

But, if we’re talking about what I think just makes a good game in general, like in more objective terms, I think it’s a game in which all the different elements serve the game’s overall philosophy/experience. Even if I don’t enjoy a game, I can respect it when it allows me to say “Okay, I can see what they were going for with this game and how all the different parts of it help it achieve that.”

I hate it when games feel like they have prominent components that don’t benefit the overall game and, more severely, detract from it (e.g. the bland, waiting-ridden open world levels in Mass Effect Andromeda, the game-consuming batmobile in Batman Arkham Knight, the awkward puzzle-platforming of some Kingdom Hearts titles, etc.).
The issue there, of course, is that sometimes different people will play the same games for different reasons. I like Persona mainly for its roleplaying and narrative, but others might like it more specifically for its dungeon-crawling and turn-based-combat. It’s a nebulous and subjective area to explore, as is the case with critiquing any art form.

Disclaimer: I don’t know anything about video game design or the video game industry and no stock should be put into my stupid opinions because I’m dumb.

9. Do you want to do an original manga/series on DA one day?

Yes, definitely. This has actually been a long time coming. I have literally hundreds of pages of different concept arts and story ideas made in preparation for such projects. But, I also have crippling issues with committing to my ideas long enough to execute on them. My interests and my conviction both tend to waver predictably unpredictably, and so that makes it hard to really stick with something like an ongoing story with character arcs and planned plot twists and recurring themes. I constantly want to drastically revise or even just rebuild things from the ground up.

Hopefully, one day I’ll find a way to feel more comfortable about the whole endeavor and just go with the flow—especially when I’d be doing this mostly for my own personal gratification. I don’t need to make something super professional. Drawing fan comics all the time can just get boring once in a while. I really want to see how people respond to my own original ideas.
More than anything I want to make a comic series that I myself would want to read. And I’m an overly-critical butthole with unrealistically high standards, so any ideas I have will probably never see the light of day.

10. Rebecca Sugar announces that Steven Universe (or some other most favorite show that you love) will be cancelled. Please, break down the 5 stages of grief (or LACK of coping) for yourself. 

Okay, first of all, I didn’t realize when I first read this that you were creating a hypothetical situation for the question and actually legit freaked out for a split sec.

1. Become extremely frustrated and hateful toward the network for prematurely concluding a story that clearly had many more places to go and ideas to explore.

2. Become extremely sad that I will no longer be able to see what other places the story had to go and what other ideas it had to explore.

3. Go find some people on reddit who are like-minded and will make me feel better about the whole thing.

4. Write some kind of schmaltzy and whiny blog about it.

5. Do nothing other than complain to everyone that the show is ending, including and especially people who do not watch/like the show.

Secretly understand to myself that the show was probably going downhill and that maybe it was for the best that it ended when it did.

6. Draw and spread fan comics about Steven Universe in light of its cancellation in an attempt to capitalize on others’ misfortune and increase my own popularity.

6. Continue this for several weeks.

7. Accept the series’ cancellation and watch the spin-off comedy series Cartoon Network creates titled “Steven Universe Go!” that everyone hates but I actually believe isn’t really that bad when you consider its popularity with its targeted demographic and that it simply suffers from having the emotional baggage of millions of pissed-off, entitled fans who can’t move on with their lives.

8. Wait, did you say five stages?

9. Move on to some other thing that I can obsess over and draw 50 comics about every week until I get sick of it.

10. Finally draw something original.

11. Thanks a lot for agreeing to be a part of this interview! Any last words to the audience (before I tell everyone you used " : P " at the end of almost every single comment in high school HARHARHAR)?

I MAKE COMICS TO MAKE PEOPLE LAUGH AND FEEL GOOD. READ THEM. THEY’RE FUNNY SOMETIMES. I NEED THE VALIDATION. I DON’T HAVE ANY REAL EMOTIONAL SUPPORT OR FRIENDS IN MY ACTUAL LIFE. THIS IS ALL I HAVE. MY SELF-ESTEEM IS BASED IN INTERNET NUMBERS AND PRAISE FROM RANDOM STRANGERS.

AND DON’T BELIEVE ANYTHING BUTT-SAN SAYS ABOUT ME IT’S ALL LIES. SHE USED TO DRAW COMICS WITH JAPANESE SOUND EFFECTS THAT WERE UNWITTINGLY WRITTEN BACKWARDS. : P



March 9, 2017
NO JAM by cowtape   IM COOL  by cowtape   special babies  by cowtape  Mug-shot (???) by cowtape  rest... by cowtape  
Here, we have the rare species of 
:iconcowtape:, who was awol for a bit, and then popped up like a daisy with IDEAS, and DREAMS, AND ASPIRATIONS! Egads! To reward her for being more active and in-tune with the Internet community again, let's do an interview! Before a Canada snowstorm blows her away!

1. How long have you been drawing?

I’d say an approximate of 5 years. I started and still am drawing with Deviantart, but I had about a 3 year hiatus like, way back. Ever since then I’ve been uploading little by little. Currently my activity has become more consistent though so that’s great LOLOL

2. What inspirations/factors influenced your traditional semi-realistic manga style?

The manga style comes from the anime I used to watch (ie. Naruto, Death Note, Fullmetal Alchemist, Eureka Seven -- all the big name anime HAHA). Another style that I really came to like is from Kingdom Hearts/The World Ends With You official arts, drawn by Tetsuya Nomura. His style is so strong and sharp, and it looks soooo so cool.


Recent influences come from my art classes that I’ve been taking, where I draw big drawings focusing on human anatomy on Friday nights, and small sketchbook drawings or painting on canvases while experimenting on different mediums. I’ve only started getting serious about art classes and I’ve been learning a lot. This is also why I’m way more comfortable working traditionally, since it’s really the only way I’ve been creating my entire life, HAHAH

Relating back to my earlier influences (shows like Fullmetal Alchemist, Eureka Seven, Legend of Korra, Voltron and the movie Anastasia) really came to inspire me to draw more and really gave me a direction on where I want to bring my drawings. These shows are full of action, and the way it’s animated is just so sketchy, especially with the way they include action/motion blur lines in very fast movements. It’s so speedy and it’s obviously animation, but the way they can create human movement like through ANIMATION is just amazing. HUGE MENTION OF STEVE AHN, WHAT A GOD

3. Two trains, one traveling at 67.2 km/h and the other at 201 km/h, are headed toward one another along a straight, level track. When they are 938 m apart, each engineer sees the other's train and applies the brakes. The brakes decelerate each train at the rate of 2.0 m/s2. Can Lo save the people on both trains before dinner?

He better!!!! He needs to be able to save everyone and have his moment of awesome so that people will fawn over him and give him the love and attention he needs


Context: Lo is my character in a gay story(?) who is your average good looking pervert who tries to hook up with anyone and everyone, but while everyone is being gay the running gag is that Lo will never be able to get rid of his “available” status

4. If :iconchronochu-chan: was drowning in a lake, :iconlaugh-butts: was getting mugged right next to the lake, and :iconskylar-kohai: was being kidnapped from a white van at the same time, who would you save first?

I’d save Sky first, kick the kidnappers out of the white van, swim and save Chro, then help you call all the credit card companies to cancel your credit cards (cause at this point you would have lost your wallet) and then round y’all up in the white van, pick up Tofu and then we’ll go to the airport and we’ll fly to Canada and live at my house WHERE THESE THINGS ARE PROBABLY LESS LIKELY TO HAPPEN--


5. Why do you prefer traditional over digital medium?

As much as I wanted to move on to using digital mediums, I’ve never had enough resources to test around with it that much (first a tablet, and then a laptop, and then the sufficient amount of space to hold more than 2 drawings, etc). My little amount of experience on digital compared to traditional just sorta told me that maybe I should stick to what I know best for now. Even looking at tutorials online for digital art just left me really confused.

Sometimes though I do have some ideas that would make me think, “if I were able to create this kind of image it’d look great, but I don’t have enough digital knowledge/experience to make such complex drawings.” But that’s when I turn and think, “that’d be a cool challenge. How would I create this with the resources that I DO have?” It also definitely helps that recently my traditional inventory has been expanding and I’m so excited to see how much farther I can go.

6. What common art themes do you pursue in your new sketches/pictures (ex: horror, everyday, sadness, nature, etc)

I usually go for everyday scenes. Most of my gifs that I’ve currently created are tiny “moment-in-time”-esque that captures the mood and idea of “existing”. They’re based off of little moments I have when I’m aware of myself and my position, and my current emotion.

Things I’d like try out with these are more like gesture drawings, where it is also like a snapshot of life but with more movement and purpose. I’m starting out with small gifs first, and hopefully I can get better and make longer gifs with more complicated movements!

7. When do you think you can successfully become a semi-homeless hermit in the mountain with your sage-like mountain goats and the occasional village pity package every month?

Probably in my early/mid-thirties. That’s when I become a professional semi-homeless hermit. I start the practice in my early twenties.


8. You get struck by lightning (ow), but you wake up to discover you now have a super power! What super power do you have? Are you on the good or bad side?

Yowch!! I’d have the super power of invisibility and teleportation! According to my friends, I would use this to my advantage to prank people HAHHAHAHAHA I think I’d travel between good and bad; I’d be an antihero. On those personality quizzes that tell you what roles you get I’m never a hero or antagonist. I’m just the third party working according to my own agenda. If only I was that independent in real life AHAHAHAHAH

9. What do you struggle with the most when drawing, and how do you think you can you approve?

The thing that gives me the most trouble is trying to think of different poses, or capturing stories in my drawings/gesture drawings. I want to expand my creativity, improve my anatomy AND HAVE MORE PERSEVERANCE TO SEE THINGS THROUGH. With the 24/24 coming up this March Break, I’m really looking forward to test that out. I think it’ll definitely a kick for me in the right direction.

10. If you could choose ONE. FAVORITE. SONG. for all of us, which would it be?

Leo by Tacica! It’s a japanese song used as the ending track for the anime Haikyuu. Which is a sports anime that is really fun and full of enthusiastic sunshine, and I love it. The song talks about how everyone goes through life, some wandering aimlessly and they’re stuck on the ground; but if you give yourself a little push and you keep persevering, one day you’ll be able to fly. This song wins first place for my ONE. FAVORITE. SONG. as the meaning of the song was actually the impression and meaning I gave myself before actually searching the lyrics, and it just hit me twice as hard. I loved it. And also I’m always about doing your best to stand up tall and push your limits.


OTHER WORTHY MENTIONS INCLUDE “Endless Rain” by XJapan, “You Were Here” by Bump of Chicken, “I’m Alive” by Becca.


11. Thanks a lot for agreeing to be a part of this interview! Any last words to the audience (before I start the fight between you and the black bear)?

THANK YOU FOR THE INTERVIEW, AND I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY MY SUPER LONG ANSWERS! If you couldn’t tell I get very enthusiastic when I get asked questions about myself AND I HAVE A LOT OF PASSION. Being able to ask these questions were also great refreshers for me as I got to look back on what got me started, and what I want to do with my art now. AHH. THANK YOU AGAIN BUTTS



January 23, 2017
She by FuyuDust   TeaGirl's Diary by FuyuDust  Commission 47: Osozaki Late Blooming - First by FuyuDust  

Mature Content

Yuri Valentine by FuyuDust
   Inktober #4 by FuyuDust
It took me almost a year to get this perverted old man- I mean cute Vietnamese girl to interview, so let me boast this. Introducing :iconfuyudust:, the most respectable, talented, and heart-warming online artist from Vietnam that I know (she is the only online artist from Vietnam I know). Be careful when you find her looking under your skirt; she will say it is for artistic reference.

1. How long have you been drawing?

My mom mentioned I drew some wall clock when I was really young and I don’t remember a thing about it, so no, I don’t know when the hell did I start drawing. I doodle all the time as long as I can remember but I don’t have any sketchbook tho, believe it or not, after all those years and those countless doodles, I didn’t draw any complete pictures, not even one, most of them are just anime heads, and tiny mans, some without hands, some without legs.

I started drawing properly around 5 or 6 years ago, there was this Vietnamese biggest anime/manga forum, they had a small section for Artists, people can open a thread as their gallery and post their stuffs there, I opened one myself and started doing some serious drawing to show people, I earned some fame, especially for my Teagirl’s Diary which is about my high school days. But later, the sections started some roleplay games, I joined too, it was fun at first, but later some call-themselves-good artists gathered as a group and start looking down on beginner artists, acted all high and mighty, really rude and impolited and that Artists section turned into a mess, they quarreled everyday and call it “war”, man, that was so lame, I don’t want to be equated with them, so I silently quit that forum and moved on to another one, I joined some other Vietnamese artist communities and made friends with some really cool 90s artist kids, but annoying people are everywhere and they really know how to turn something friendly to a war zone, I gave up on all those communities. 

Lucky that I found out about Deviant Art, everyone is really fun and friendly here, I can’t use English very well so it’s hard to make a lot of friends like a certain Butts, sometime I wanted to say something funny and friendly or make a joke, but couldn't find the words, but it’s still nice tho, oh wait, what was the question again ?

2. If you could marry anyone (without "forbidden relationship" being an issue), who would it be right now?

That would be nice if I can marry that best friend I mentioned all the time in all my journal and art description, homo or not, I don’t have that kind of “falling deeply in love” or “can’t live without you” feeling with anyone, to me, marrying someone means I’m going to stick with them for the rest of my life, so the answer for this question is the one I feel at ease the most when I’m around them, and it’s properly her.

3. How much do you love tea?

I’m using Tea Girl as my penname because my name means “Tea” in Vietnamese, and that tag line “a girl who loves tea” is just there because I think it sounds cool, I actually know nothing about tea and the only tea I drink is the one they serves for free in restaurants, but my dad loves tea tho, he drink them all the time, I often pour half of his pot into my iced water jug whenever I see it, I noticed he bought a bigger pot later.

4. What do you like and despise about your homeland (Vietnam)? 

An ant nest, with a dead queen

5. When does your next Slice of Artist Life comic come out?

5330123474123492 days later may be

6. What is your favorite food?

Grilled beef wrapped in betel leaf

7. What digital/traditional tools do you use to draw? 

Intous Bamboo-Manga Studio-Photoshop/Mechanical pencil-Micron Pens

8. What are your feelings on this picture?: i.imgur.com/YBwDofP.jpg

The girl is not my type, pet-human is also not my type, cat ears and tails are fine but what the hell with that chain.

9. How many siblings do you have, and do they drive you nuts sometimes?

I don’t have any, but I have a cousin used to live with us for a long time, I mentioned him a lot in my journals too, he’s like real brother to me, I mean, the real good one, but he do drive me nuts sometimes, I really love him, I considered to give him out as an answer for question 2 too, but he has a girlfriend now so I let him pass this time. 

10. What is a project (making a manga, making a dating sims game, starting a new series, etc) you interested in starting eventually?

All of them, I have a manga story, actually already drew some pages, and also a visual novel plan, actually already finished drew all the character’s sprites, but both of them are stuck at the writing part. I think I’ll need to hire someone to write for me later.

11. Thanks a lot for agreeing to be a part of this interview! Any last words to the audience (before I mug you)?

Hey everyone, I guess everyone here is Butts’ friends, and I bet most of you think she’s a friendly and cheerful lady, but don’t let that fool you, she’s actually a super duper lonely person who has a lot of problems with humans, making joke is fun but let’s have some small talk with her about life and stuffs sometime too, she’ll love to heard about little warm and happy stories in your daily life and like to talk about how bad humanity is. She’s an important friend to me but sometime I can’t understand what’s she saying and sometime I don’t know how to tell her what I really think, as I said, my English is real bad, it took me 2 hours to answer all these questions and it’s still full of mistakes, so I can not really have a good talk with her anytime soon, so please take good care of her for me too, thank you ♥


I reached the size limit for my last [1] Hard Hitting Interview with Butts journal post. So here is [2] Hard Hitting Interview with Butts journal.

Star! I dislike having multiple journal entries for each thought. I update interviews on one journal entry, mi amigos. Star! 


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10/13/17



Hi, going to rant about a class I'm taking right now and the school system. FEEL MY RAW EMOTION:

I feel like some teachers have disappointed me to the point where I feel school just is not for me because teachers exist. The bad ones, I mean. 

My Molecular Biology teacher has ATTITUDE where she says stuff like "This is big kid time; you guys need to sign the roll or you're tardy" when NOT EVERYONE received the roll, and even the people who was in class on time did not receive the roll, so why the heck are you demeaning us on something we did not do? Or we ask her a question about a test question we got back, and she says "This is a 4000 level course. You figure out that question and answer on your own." And you didn't think I already went through the textbooks, notes, and Internet, and attempted? Like WTF woman, you think we all stand here, expecting you to do the wok? If that was the case, we would have asked for ALL the questions, but we asked for ONE. So this was a problem we had DESPITE using the resources, and we just. need. this. question. answered. cause. you. wrote. the. confusing. question. SO EXPLAIN YOURSELF? She would not even let someone go to their best friend's wedding (the wedding had to be rescheduled because Hurricane Irma destroyed the initial wedding area). The girl had to sit there in class, listening to Dr. Jenson fuggin swatting makeshift flies while never finishing a sentence and teaching like she had one thought and putting 6 million more thoughts in there, instead of being her best friend's maid of honor. And Dr. Jenson will ALWAYS put in the random comment "You're big kids now. So you're going to have to do this work for yourselves." While lecturing. She just randomly tells the silent audience to do THEIR job as students, and she can keep teaching badly.

So if they have a question, you're on your own. Not my fault.

Then, I told myself "Fugh it, I am just going to study hard for this quiz coming up because Quest Con is coming and another exam, and I need to get this out of the way. If I complain too much but do not put in the work, who am I to complain?" Well, 118 slides in, and those 10 questions on the quiz were bonkers, man (I took it yesterday). It made me upset that she once said "Yeah, I test you on the slides. Nothing else. I hate it when teachers tell you one thing and give you another" And then proceeds to say "You need to look for outside information to get everything" JUST TO CLARIFY why a question had a completely foreign answer to us.

Like for example, she teaches us that -10 box is TATAAT. And -35 box is TTGACA. That is it. That's what the lecture was on. On the quiz, worth 10 points, is the question "What is the Pribnow box sequence?" ....Like, what? I was not taught that box. So I chose anything OTHER than the sequences I knew, because I have not heard of "pribnow" before. Turns out pribnow box is -10 box = TATAAT box, and I woke up this morning just fuming: WHY THE FUGH DID I STUDY FOR 8 FUGGIN HOURS FOR THIS TEST TO MISS A QUESTION ON SOMETHING I ALREADY KNEW? There was something so messed up about this system. WHEN DID SHE SAY "PRIBNOW" IN CLASS? IF SHE SAID IT BEFORE, I MISSED IT. THAT IS IF SHE EVEN SAID IT, OR ASSUMED WE ALREADY KNEW ITS ALTERNATIVE NAME. This would have been nothing, if not for the future thought:

How many more of these questions is she going to throw our way? If she can do this on a quiz, can't she do this on the cumulative final? Just how much control as a student can I make? I can study hard, but in the end, the teacher can screw you over if they are bad enough. I despise being put in a situation where your success is detrimented by someone else's, no matter what you do.  It goes against my idea of happiness, virtue, courtesy, and sanity. But isn't school always like this?

Well, school made sense before. Working hard for teachers like this MAKES NO SENSE.



And you may think "It's just a question on a quiz. How does that determine how successful you will be in future endeavors?"

The small moments in life can give you hints on the bigger picture. If school has these teachers, than has the school system done something wrong? I think so. Of course, Florida's school system, and specifically my university's science department needs a lot of work. And I put that into account. I will not accept being a victim of bad teaching nonetheless. I will not get used to it. So yes. This teacher does not stop teaching after I am done with the course. They will keep teaching like this to other students, and to other students, and to other students. I can do teacher evaluations, that chairs would accumulate (if they care) to finally give "a word" to the professor. But that is after they have already screwed over so many students with this system.

I have talked to her after class, I have talked to her through email. I remind her she has made mathematical grading errors for the whole class. She is like "Oops, thanks for the heads up" and then does not change it. I do not know why people seem so competent only TO NOT COMMUNICATE A TOPIC CORRECTLY. Now, I am calculating if I can get a C with this type of "learning", and I usually shoot for As. Is this my fault as a student? Absolutely not. This is the fault of the teacher.

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Also, I was a Physics TA a year ago for an Indian Physics professor, who was there for only a year. The Physics department put so many classes and work on for the first year that she went through so much anxiety (she would call me up at 9 PM and ask if her and I can talk at the mall, and I say "The mall is closed." And she says "Well, can we talk in the parking lot?" And if I drive there, it is her having a breakdown. Then she asked for last minute help from me after finals week was over because her grading Physics TA decided to wait until the last few HOURS to get all of the grades in. It was crazy, it was chaotic, this was no condusive to success, and the material she had to teach was 2x the amount a regular students was supposed to take. They put 2 Physics courses into 1 and expected a professor to work with that. And she was a GOOD teacher who cared, so of course she broke. She left to India without a word from the school or me over the Summer, and never came back. The Physics department is in shambles with bad professors and a high failing rate, only curtailed by 20+ points of curving, which hides the bad teaching test averages and keeps their jobs. The university noticed and has since moved the Physics department under the control of the Chemistry department.....THE FUGGIN CHEMISTRY DEPARTMENT. I have had experience with them. I tutor chemistry for them too. Chemistry professors there are really bad as well (unless you have the rare good professor, and they do not stay long either). If Chemistry cannot keep itself up, how would they keep up Physics, with the way they treat their teachers and failing students?

Recently, my own tutoring center has the audacity to call me into the office and say "Carmen, the office specialist, noticed that you were agreeing with the Physics student that their professor was teaching the subject wrong. Well, as tutors, we are here to help. Not to affirm their frustrations."

And I say "But the reason they are there for tutoring, since I have been there, is to see if anyone has taken the same course has them, been through the same frustrating circumstances, and know what problems they are going through."

And she says "We are only here to help. Not get too heated in a discussion."

And I say "The student was explaining that they do not know where to start with notes because the Physics professor PROVIDED no notes. Only clicker questions that the student is not allowed to have and take pictures of, and none of that material is actually on the test. The Physics teachers here do NOT lecture. I know all of them. They have heavy tenure. Plenty of them have been on probation for years for failing more than 60% of their students every semester. These students come to me with obvious concerns I cannot ignore. Carmen may have thought the tutoring session sounded overly negative and grim, because the situation with Physics IS very grim. We have to be realistic, or else we cannot start anywhere with Physics tutoring."

Then she says "The next time you have a student that starts off the conversation complaining about her/his professor, you just smile and say nothing."

And I say "That sounds a little robotic and precievingly judgmental. Every Physics student that comes to Physics tutoring starts off with a complaint because they ARE going up against the tide. if I cannot acknowledge that first and then work on ways to go around it and then teach Physics blindly, I know that student will fail, like plenty of other students that just "work hard" but do not know how to work with these types of professors. I am not helping them to succeed, just blindly go forward."

When students work hard and get low grades, do not tell them to work harder. There is a lesson to be learned here, and it is not for them.

No realism always was the most blissful way to succeed.




I think instead of faulting students, you are allowed to look at the impact of the teacher you hire in as a university and school system, instead of always pointing the blame at someone else. Maybe redoing the way teaching is being done and structured in America is a better way to tackle "student problems" than telling the student to "spend less time with your kid and use colored flashcards" so they can tackle the over-testing, commonly anti-social, and not down to Earth unrealistic learning obstacles you put on them.

Anyways. There's my rant. Inktober Binge Livestream on 10/28/17 at 6 PM CST. Be there, and finish Inktober pictures with me. Also, I won 3rd place ($125) for Innovation Celebration competition at the College of Business. I pitched Life Plot, a business ideas where you plant a tree on top of a dead body to get nature walks instead of cemeteries. I am really connecting more to business students and faculty (they DO things. They make things HAPPEN, whether they have to start a business to make it happen or not) than I am to anyone my age as of late. But I do not want to get a full-time job to get closer to "career folk". That is drawling and boring. Stuck in a tight bind of decisions. Someone talk to me later to help me contemplate life.

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6/30/17



If you were a refugee, poor, fleeing a country that you know more than anyone is too dangerous, and you risked everything: your finances, health, and safety for your children to be away from the violence, but you are weak, broken, lied to about which refugee camp you will go to, how long you will stay, whose fault it is, how you will survive, how you can support them through all of this - You would be a candidate for ISIS too. Someone speaks of an "initiative to give you food for your family and fight for your people instead of sitting there hoping hoping hoping for something better".

If they told you that the enemy are the people who have HELPED cause the very militaristic gun violence and political chaos in your country to begin with, you would be desperate too. Imagine being in their shoes. They walked so many miles just to not get bombed on by the very few percentages of people you are afraid of. You would put a blanket of "OUT" over an entire population as long as you got the "one cockroach". THAT is what terrorism does, and that is what you would be doing if you follow that logic.

Imagine being told those people helped start it and are maintaining that violence while pointing to poor people like you saying "It is their faults". But you still try to reach the border, believing that despite, you will get safety and freedom in that other country.

Then that country constructs a ban on you, keeping you out, not for your education (whether you are a doctor or not), for your service, or how many children- but your LOCATION, WHICH CONNECTS GREATLY TO YOUR CULTURE, AND USUALLY RELIGION.

THAT is what makes people lose hope, and go towards ISIS and become Sleeper Cells. If we generalize those who want to get away from that violence as those who "could", you will have more and more broken candidates for ISIS than now.

Although one true cure all solution is not found yet, I know pushing refugees out of our country (a person who has been forced to leave their country in order to escape war, persecution, or natural disaster) is NOT an answer. It is an easy political cop out. And if we know anything about politics in war and past, it is not easy. 

If you say "But we MUST do something!" Diplomacy and not bombing the shit out of people (while you fail to connect the bombing of those people to the bombing of your loved ones in independent terrorist attacks) is something, not "nothing." In reality, with all the new leaders coming up in different strong countries, and the US with Donald Trump, we are at the highest chance for another huge international war. Soon, an impatient "I WANT TO DO MORE!" becomes a "WE SHOULD HAVE DONE LESS" when you find yourself in the fighting lines against the very people you tried to keep out, not because they were the terrorists, but because you let the few bait you and their own people against you. 

Patience, diplomacy, and not bullying/blaming countries we have already invaded more than once - may not be the sexiest thing.

But many years from now when you read about this decade in the history books, you would wonder how these people did not notice how their own self fear was keeping them from seeing straight too.

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4/14/17

When I was younger, I had this dark questioning of what "hard work" was when someone said "As long as you work hard, you can succeed." Well...many of us work hard, and do not succeed or get what we want.

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I just read this Stanford University study poised as a "survey" that asked university students to explain how they would study, why they are studying that way, and what their study plan is to tackle the exam, 7-10 days before taking it.

The students who actually took the survey scored about 1/3 of a letter grade higher on average than those WHO DID NOT TAKE THE SURVEY.



The survey is the experimental factor. It pushed the students to strategist their plan some time before the deadline/event actually happened. 

"Strategic thinking distinguishes between people of comparable ability and effort." - Patricia Chen (Leader Researcher) 

"This can make the difference between people who achieve and people who have the potential to achieve, but don't...Blind effort alone, without directing that effort in an effective manner, doesn't always get you to where you want to go."



Although this is an academic result, I believe this applies to general problems people have when it comes to hard work vs efficient results. So you "work hard" and worked "6 hours" on this art/economic/math/lawn/computer/etc project. Someone else "studied even less time" or "just did this" or
"tried this art method" got the same result. That must mean "life is not fair" or "I'm not good enough." 

Not true, and do not fall into that way of thinking.

I cannot remember how many times someone has told me "I worked this hard on something, and someone still beat me. Some people are just smarter than others." WELL BOO FUGGIN HOO. They just specialized/figured out how to get the same if not better result. Learn from them (if they're cheating, DO NOT learn from them. Don't learn stupid habits) instead of use them as totem for not striving 120%.

"Keep on pushing no matter how hard it gets." <--- I have a problem with this quote too.

I add this:

"- Unless you are doing the same thing over and over again and expecting something different. Then stop. Do not make yourself miserable for no reason."

 "When you have the opportunity to make a mistake, make it." <--- And I have a problem with this quote.

But one day, you will make one heck of a mistake with that ideology, and really screw yourself over.

I add this:

"-You do not have to make all the mistakes yourself. Learn from people who have made mistakes and want to share what they learned. Do not try all the mistakes for yourself. There are faster ways to learn."



Look at efficiency of PROCESS (Was this really the best way to do it? Could you have done this and ended up with the same result?) instead of judge the RESULTS and think that must mean you failed/succeeded, because that is what people tell you.

Analyze/observe what made this situation different than the others, so you can try something new, and inevitably have control over failing/succeeding (this does not work if you are overly critical and hard on yourself).

Things do not have to be harder EVERY TIME. Your body specializes in "adapting." Do not make your mind centuries behind what your body can do. Look to "study efficiently", "say things efficiently", "research efficiently", "do paid work efficiently", etc, and people will notice you are not just the everyday person: you seek to progress and IMPROVE YOURSELF WITHOUT BEING TOLD TO.



Some people improve slower than others. But they may be the ones with highest level of potential than those who "breeezeeeee by" because they stayed long enough to understand instead of just "pass" that part of life/the test.

When I was in middle school and high school, I thought I was not as smart as others, because they picked up concepts faster than me. But because of that self opinion, I stayed later in classes and asked a lot of questions and made sure I understood it. Some people called me "smart." I was really ill-confident and thought I was so behind, so really, I was constantly trying to "catch up", which gave me a goal.

As long as you get to a result you are proud of, AND KEEP LOOKING FOR MORE GOALS TO FULFILL/CATCH UP TO, people who are better than you are not sources of jealousy and resentment, but inspiration and something to shoot towards. You start improving process (which helps you later in the long run) instead of looking at results (which is only one simple and misleading "look") with a polarized: NO / YES.



On a totally relevant note,

...I decided to play Sims 3 and sleep and eats a tremendous amount of food and play with my dog instead of come to DA for my school break. I am sorry. But the natural followup after saying "I am sorry" is "I am not actually sorry." 

I think I should draw something ridiculous. Happy Mother Day everyone! I WILL GET TO YOUR COMMENTS EVENTUALLY *6 weeks later* 


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3/29/17
Tiert Art (total) by ButtSensei
I won 2nd place ($500) + Excellence in Undergraduate Research Award ($100) for the university's College of Business Elevator Pitch Contest!
- Where you pitch a business idea that has viability in the market -

Thank you very much to those who voted and commented for the research poll and finalist status post announcement. I took screenshots of your comments and poll results to use during the presentation when vouching for an interest in an art website alternative that has a different model of moderation, art feature, and professionalism compared to DeviantArt.

I pitched Tier Art, a tier (level/hierarchy) based art social media website that moves members up "tiers" with unlocked art and premium awards (ex: ability to review new art supplies, crowd sourcing, livestreaming, discount prices for art and print shop) to gives artists a goal (or "tier) to improve themselves.

Projected Startup Costs & Industry Estimate:



We were also told we won the Excellence in Undergraduate Market Research Award ($100) and must present in the Student Scholar Symposium, among the graduating research theses (arughh).

Also, I found out my elevator pitch engineering partner Sibyl (:iconepsilon-0:ran away from her dysfunctional parents when she was 16, lived with her grandmother, her grandmother's house got foreclosed, Sibyl did not want to give up her college education by moving with her grandma, so she chose to be homeless for 2 months living in the forest near the school before a university math professor took her in, and now, she is living in her own apartment working as a server for Azalea Trace and math tutor (I met her at the tutoring lab), saving up money to buy a new apartment with her boyfriend. When we won 2nd place ($250 for both of us), she said "All right! Now, I can skip work this weekend and have time to study for finals!") If the university was not the one splitting the prize checks, I would easily give Sibyl more. Even if I did 70% of the project and asked her onto the team at the last minute (presenting for a cash competition is tedious/boring without a homie), I just go online and buy gardening supplies with excess money. Some people need it to pay rent. 

Here's some of her art. She is an artist too (I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THAT. I AM GOOD AT CHOOSING THE RIGHT PEOPLE FOR NO GOOD REASON)! I told her she needs to join DeviantArt, and if she does not want to, just create Tier Art, and I will meet her on there, haha:

 

Thank you so much for you guy's help and supporting shenanigans!
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3/9/17



I thought it was kind of a shame that I am such a professional student, but academic classes FLY by each semester, and I go to the next class, next test, next teacher, next semester, without batting an eyelash.

Even though professors tell you to sit down and "learn", the system of "graduating in 4 years," robotically fulfilling shadowing/volunteering experience for the career path you think you want at that moment, advisers telling you the same non-personal things, and horrible and amazing teachers all in the same 6 months: this system sometimes encourages one not to retain, reflect, and reserve, but to push, jump, and skip your way to a "success" you do not understand yet, until you...."get there"? That means you constantly ask yourself, "What is the next step?" "What is the means to an end?" - to the end you cannot see?

It does not help that universities boast retention rate while also boasting they push students to graduate in a limited amount of time or their financial aid will be cut off, and they will pay extra fees. Many of those students are scholars and simply wanted to learn more, and are taught being "curious" means more fees and less support from their university. Many of these students that stay for longer and really put time into accurately pursuing what they want are the most successful ones to graduate, not the ones that graduate immediately and did not have any time to reflect on what they "learned", because of all the work, family, and other chores/obligations they unfortunately juggled.

To put it simply:

If you do the hard thing, but don't have time to learn what the heck you picked up from the hard thing, what's the point of doing the hard thing?

This system is funny, yet I am still here, wanting to beat it. I told myself in senior year of high school that being an undergraduate with debt, although it was common, was ridiculous, and not something I would do. If I did not have the money myself through scholarships, jobs, and my own means, I would not go to college. The government gave my brother and I our Green Card (US permanent resident card) A FEW MONTHS before college started. The Green Card is necessary for scholarships, government grants, and student funding to get a higher degree. Our high school guidance counselor had to beg and send letters to USCIS, and then miraculously, we got it. 

No immigrant family funded by construction and nail work can fund 2 kids under a new US college education on their own. I will never put that burden on my parents. One day, I want to buy them a house (before the tragic plane/car crash when they die) for the sacrifice they took to give us a better opportunity/life here (which is why I find it funny Trump words immigrants to be ungrateful and destroying the system, when we would not purposely drop everything to move here if we did not love this country as much if not more than he does). My father was a doctor, and my mom was a nurse back in Vietnam. I do not even understand applying for Life Insurance for my loved ones (WHO ARE MY LOVED ONES), but apparently, my parents will leave their relatives for a foreign country and strip all the credentials they worked for just to see their children "start over". That means a lot. So education is the role model my parents let me play with more than anything.

Both students and teachers put so much work into these university courses I am taking, and like the rebellious neanderthal that I am, I refuse to let a fast-pace setting and administrative/higher up/parental pressures push me, OR YOU, towards apathy in academics. Here, at a university/academic institution/learning space, there are huge opportunities to better yourself, and you cannot let the person watching or behind you push you to un-humanly move as fast as them.

They probably had no time to look back at all. In the process of "getting that degree," "getting that position" and "becoming that someone," they forgot to look back and reflect on what was, how, when, and where.

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3/9/17




2016 Fall Semester, my favorite class was [STA 4173] Biostatistics (Star! Star! Star! Star! ) (I received a B), a Biology-based statistical analysis course that teaches you ANOVA, Analysis of Variance, Multiple Comparisons, Simple Linear Regression & Correlation, Contingency Tables, and other statistical analysis tools to understand Biology factors/data research and make conclusions/meanings out of it. We were testing the strangest questions like "Does being tall lead to a higher income?" or "Are darker-feathered turkeys dying from drowning more than light-feathered turkeys?", and if we had the data, we could make a "conclusion" and give a data-driven answer! It was amazing to realize that these answers, that you see in big scientific journals cited with many different authors among many years of research- their answers can be implied in 75 minutes looking at data sheets in this class.

My Biostatiscs teacher was Dr. Okafor, and I was told by my electrical engineering tutor friend Zach that "Okafor is the worse, oh my god. He is so difficult." For most of the semester, Dr. Okafor would come to class 10-15 minutes late, and I would add up the number of minutes he owed us, to be a full class time. That was how late he was, but when he comes in, he has his supplies ready, he writes notes by hand on the projector (and they are DANG GOOD NOTES- I molded my notes to be a as clean and outlined like his afterwards), and his teaching style is literally "disappointed dad." He would say, in his Nigerian accent. "If I ask the class a question, you can answer and speak up. I do not care if you are wrong. If you are wrong, that is great, If you are correct, that is great. But silence is bad. Silence does not teach anything."

His tests are a roller coaster you wish you could jump off of. He gives us 1.25 hours to finish a mostly statistical analysis exam with all work shown, and if you miss one part of a technique, THE WHOLE PROBLEM IS WRONG.




^ That is one problem. ONE PROBLEM! Worth 20 points!


I wish I was not such a knowledge junkie, because I loved studying and putting together all the analysis tools and study guide.

I recommend "micro-notes" to those who want fast-studying "at a glance" to be a more innovative and quick way to review notes. It is better than flipping through countless pages you can lose. Why do you think phones are so convenient? Because you can view MORE information than what was offered (ex: computer) on something smaller and more compact in your pocket. Have a habit of making your notes like that too, and micro-noting really helps you determine what is most important, if you hypothetically only had this study guide to study right at a glance before the test.

Biostatistics also had an end-of-the-year group project (spoiler: it was horrifying), where you use all the statistical analysis tools you learned to answer a hypothetical question you are interested in (ex: "Is coral bleaching increasing as sea temperature levels rise?"), find real data on it, write a full report, and make a 8 minute presentation with a PowerPoint, based on the report. This group project was 20% of the class grade.

Please, hear me out on this following rant:

I was a part of Team #2. He picked out our team members for us. ...I was stuck with Madyson in my team. I sent mass reply-all emails pushing my team members to agree on a topic early. Madyson did not reply to the email. 

For a report get-together, Madyson shows up late, despite having NO IDEA what happened with previous lectures because of her allergies and no email responses, and she STARTS CONTROLLING THE GROUP. One thing I do not like. I can accept leadership when you did your research. I do not accept leadership when you are an amateur. I correct her on things she is saying to write, because that is statsitcally wrong, and she said "Why?", and I EXPLAIN IT (she would know if she went to class); then she said more ignorant things, and then interrupts me when I reply and says "Whatever. I'm just saying things. I don't know what I'm talking about. Haha!"

...People like this, who joke about their uselessness like a prop, ARE A WASTE OF MY TIME.

 

^ Breakdown of the CDC data through chi-square analysis 

While practicing for the group project presentation, Madyson is able to get Lauren off subject, and they start talking about other classes and pizza and sorority sisters. I verbally spoke out loud one slide, and Madyson says "No, you're doing the next slide. I'm doing this one." And I said "Wait, do you know the background of the slide?" And she says "Well, I'll just make it really sound like I do. I know you thought up of the idea, but if I don't say this, it would look like I didn't do any work."

Madyson has this nervous streak from the little time I am with her, where she talks fast, says something conclusive on her own, and then turns away to not see the reaction of the person. She did that just then to me. If she HAD looked at my face at that moment, that face said "No, that's correct. You didn't do much for this project, and you're going to take credit for what was not yours." Then she jokingly said "Now, STRAIGHT TO YOU, BUU!" and gave me a finger symbol to transition to my next side about MATERNAL DEATH RATES, and I said "Madyson, please don't do that. That's unprofessional." And she said "I don't care about being unprofessional. I mean, that's like, someone's standards on you." I understand this. "Since you said don't do that, I'm definitely going to do it during the presentation!" with a big smile. But I don't understand when people who use "brave standards" to abuse courtesy for sensitive topics and other's opinions.

Seriously, guys, being mature is about personality. You can spin around in an office chair, play with dolls, have massive amounts of Legos, and still sleep with night lights because you are afraid of the dark. You can still be a mature person. Madyson was not mature with her "brave talk to being herself despite what people thought", no matter how much she wanted to fall back on "I'm me! I don't care what others think!"

That was the most annoyed I was in a long time. -To hear my ideology of standards being used to justify disregarding/ignoring a group member's ask for professionalism and politeness, who share her grade.

 <--- Accurate description of how Madyson talks

Madyson (I know. When will she stop EXISTING IN THE PROBLEMS OF LIFE) also had an Organic Chemistry Lab final test RIGHT AFTER our presentation, since she opted for the team to go last when the teacher asked what turn we wanted. But she would miss her exam because of this, so right before class presentations started, I had to MOTHER her to review to Dr. Okafor that she had an exam.

I raised my hand, Dr. Okafor asked "Yes, Buu?", and I mentioned a general comment about the presentations, and then said "Oh", turned my head to Madyson who sat in the back, and said "Madyson, do you want to add about your exam to him?" And she said "Uhhh...." shyly.

And then Madyson, like a timid sheep that "doesn't care what people think!", explained to Dr. Okafor that our team cannot go last because of her exam, and I said "That's right." And I looked straight at Madyson instead of the teacher while saying this. "Instead of going last, we want to go first." And she gives me the "What?" expression. And I give her the "Yes, bitch. We are going first." expression. The "I've had it up to hear with your dumb ass prissy half decisions that have no basis in the group, and you are listening to me, because you have proven you don't know jack shit about what is going on, and I do." face.
And Dr. Okafor is like "Okay!" excited happy  like a happy go lucky guy that someone would actively volunteer to go first, and we ace the presentation (and yes, Madyson did the stupid "NOW, STRAIGHT TO YOU, BUU!" shout and finger signal), and we take the final, and Biostatistics was over.

The conclusion is Dr. Okafor is a frustratingly interesting and systematic teacher, and Madyson is an everyday idiot. 

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2/23/17

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Wix.com, the self-website-building website company, has bought DeviantArt for $36 million around this Thursday. That means the ~325 million art pieces , 40+ million registered members, and ~ $3 million of assumed liabilities now belong to WIX.

I have even custom-made a website through WIX to try it out. It is very easy. The stocks for WIX is about ~$63.8 right now, but I expect it to rise if they help DeviantArt fix the customization, gallery, and REPUTATION/IMAGE to the community.

Before DeviantArt makes statements about being acquired by WIX and "What this means for our community", "Oh, the benefits", "This is a new step to the future", to make it sound like it was the best business deal idea, like almost EVERY acquired business will claim, I will add in my two cents before you are all manipulated by a DA announcement (if they choose to announce it, or stay their hollow inward douche bag-ness and keep things "private" even among the art community that holds them up):

WIX acquired Appixia (Israeli startup for creating native Modern Commerce apps) in April 2014. Then, WIX acquired OpenRest, a developer of online ordering systems for restaurants, in October 2014. If they do not expand, they will just wait for themselves to go stagnant in a changing market economy. You cannot wait for fortune to come from small trinkles of first-interested customers- you acquire other companies to include in your tree house of friends.

But acquiring DA yesterday, to me, is the first sign of them acquiring a direct art community, not just an interface. 100% of DA's capital stock now belongs to WIX, and Angelo Sotira (Co-founder & CEO of DeviantArt) and the interested DA crew will join WIX as well. If WIX does this well, this can help both DA and WIX.

DA is the largest art website currently because of its profile HTML customization, website revisions, and art gallery. But it has a lot of limitations, which WIX's interface and team can help bring new breath to, especially for the horrifying DA mobile app. Artists and creators are the ones who jump start new innovations and companies, so I think that is what WIX is investing in. And what is the supposing largest artist community, accessible on the web?: DeviantArt (DA)

If you do not know, DA's troll population is high due to low staff and transparency, less professional site color/design, and Copyright and Creative Commons licensing violations (some members have been the victims of copyright infringement from convention vendors using artwork illegally on products and prints in 2007) has led to DeviantArt falling in favor among artists, who would move to Tumblr, Intagram, etc.

No matter how much DA tries to claim the rebranding of DA's logo and creating such a heavily wonky and inefficient app (the browser version of DA version is better than the app. What does that tell you?) was a "step towards the right direction", I think they were stepping towards a cliff. Closing off comments, not openly responding to the necessity of the logo change, and then not publicizing much of bug fixes or changes that have been complained about DA for a long time- whatever they were doing, they were losing their community while doing it, and if you cannot EXPLAIN to your community what is happening and WHY and claim this is for the best, yet no physical gain and fired staff is all to show for it, what type of business venture are you?

I was so frustrated with DA that I created the idea of Tier Art as a back up art website business venture, if they annoy me enough.

BUT LIKE CLOCKWORK, the day that I submitted this idea to the university Elevator Pitch Contest, WIX ACQUIRED DEVIANTART!

So I guess I do not have to give up name-brand cereal and cheesecake to afford starting up a company - WIX can give DA a chance, and I can waddle around here, believing there might be a small chance DA will not just be run by idiot optimist Angelo Sotira (I guess he is not that much of an idiot now since he sold the company while the website still has an artist reputation to uphold from years of hard work before). 
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DA is lucky to be acquired by WIX.

If WIX is reading, I hope you research into how the community interacts with each other, listen to the DA CEO to hear/understand his roots (because he really does mean his best) and how DA has expanded from artist word of mouth, and integrate your system into DA to give growing artists modern tools that they were not given before, you will have a community on your side, and we can both work well together.


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11/24/16



It is Thanksgiving, one of the university holidays. It is one of the few breaks I have. I feels....different. Is this what a break feels like? 

This semester Has been so busy that I would wake up at early to be at school from 8:30 AM - 8 PM regularly. I would come home, and I would wonder if I am good "dog owner" when my dog can only see me for about 20% of his life, and I bet 14% of that is us sleeping.

I was finishing up, to my greatest extent, a Biostatistics report on which ethnicity had the highest effect (using chi square - R x C & 1 x K method) on live birth rates across different age groups in America in 2014. The teacher did not even fully teach chi square before this day ended, and the report and Powerpoint presentation is due either Monday or Wednesday (he has yet to answer my email question on which date he chose...because he conveniently forgot to tell the whole class). My group members were frustrated with doing the report over so many times (I facilitated the project, because there was no way we would be able to finish this project without a schedule).

I did not understand why they were frustrated. Things like this happens a lot. Were they hungry working on the project for so long? Angry I was facilitating so many redoes to get the analysis right? Annoyed they were doing this right before Thanksgiving? 

We may be people with family to meet, but we are still university students with classes and projects to do.

I have to finish a take home exam, do some digital commissions I picked up from 2016 Fandom Con, write ~8 Biology Seminar reports with analysis on peer-reviewed articles that are relevant to each seminar and why, I want to take my dog Christo to the vet for his updated rabies shot, go to PepBoys to fix my car headlights, make a phone call to Paypal, Days Inn, and Florida Blue Health Insurance, deposit the convention profit into the bank, my parents want me to visit for Thanksgiving (urgh), TEFL, and do the laundry. And that is just for Thanksgiving break.

But I am not frustrated/stressed. Just busy. I realize I am not frustrated on doing this report so many times because....I am used to this.

I am too busy to care about bad things. Too busy to acknowledge the good things. Too busy to hang out with friends unless there is a business incentive for the university. Too busy to draw artwork for DA. Too busy to see my dog everyday. Too busy to make phone calls. Too busy to notice my new roommate: my landlord brought his wonderful finance Lola all the way from China to the house.

I barely see her because they are asleep by the time I come home.

When I was little, that was my mother's schedule. She woke up early in the morning to make me food, and then left early for work. She would come home near ~10 PM, when I would be asleep. I would barely see my mother. I felt that was sad for both her and I that we could not acknowledge each other's existence with a "Hi" or natural "Are you doing okay?" 

It has always been "Go to school." And "Goodbye" with my parents for so long. When I moved out of the house, she cried, like she would miss me. "Why?" I wondered? You guys have felt so far away. Do you even know what my hobbies are, what I love to do, what I want to truly be?

But now, I have that schedule, and I wonder, "Did I go wrong?"



I am playing an app game called Mystic Messenger. On the route I am on, there is an office worker named ^Jaehee who quits her job from her emotionally and professionally abusive boss (I have a key chain of him on my backpack, ironically), and she realizes the incredible things she COULD have done if she just had free time.

This Thanksgiving is that free time, despite what I listed above.

An older gentleman I met in 2016 Fandom Con lives some hours away from me, but he was in town doing errands, and gave me Prismacolor watercolor pencils and a milkshake (I am lactose-intolerant, BUT DUDE. MILKSHAKE) at the university library, where I was typing up my last report. I said "Thank you!" Since he is an engineer, we talked about solar energy, electric cars, oil in the Everglades, his grandchildren wrecking his BMW model (only several were made in the world), and the art of photography (I threw in a lot of what I learned for good photography from DeviantArt).

Afterwards, he told me "Buu, you don't seem like the type to let people into your trust circle!" 



He left, and I looked at the watercolor pencils, and I remembered when I had the time and the aspiration to work with these. Where did that go? That creativity? I mean, it is there. But it feels like a pit in my throat. A pit that won't go away. A pit that might grow into a plant eventually, but I keep gulping it down. I do it on purpose, to concentrate on fending off academic storks trying to get it.

Here is a poem I wrote for my first few hours of freedom before finals preparation weeks start next week:



And totally irrelevantly, I wrote another drabble (quick written story/thought) right afterwards in 5 minutes:



In my opinion, I should write children's stories because my stories' morals are so innovative and heart-warming.

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11/9/16

PRESIDENT DONALD TRUMP






So it finally happened. By an incredibly surprising Republican sweep of the US Senate and Congress, and presidency, we see Donald Trump as the next United States President on November 9, 2016. The majority of polls were wrong, and Democrats AND Republicans were surprised. But one thing is certain:

THE PEOPLE HAVE SPOKEN.

I am not for Trump by any means, but I believe in individuality. And as Trump imposed his individuality to lead his campaign, so too can the government individuals, Republican, Democrat, Green Party, Libertarian, etc, impose their individuality back.

When people say "This is not what America is", they are wrong. There is no one America. America is what you make it to be. That is why political elections like this can end up like this: Hillary Clinton (Democrat) winning by popular vote, but Donald Trump (Republican) winning by Electoral College. The Electoral College can be revised, the GOP can be revised, health care can be revised, social media impact on campaigns can be revised- THIS IS THE POINT OF THE POLITICAL TRANSITION.

More than half of Democrats will say they are afraid of the Republican party. If you ask the Republican party, they will say the same about the Democrats. They do not try to understand each other. The uncertainty and error looks like a long-running divorce of the bi-partisanship of the United States, something that US citizens that are told this is a "great country" is great only in its conflict from Britain to its conflict with Iraq to its conflict with ISIS to its conflict within itself with racism, sexism, and narrow minded personal space while claiming you accept your neighbor.

The accepted hypocrisy while claiming we are one of the most open countries in the world, I believe, has bred not only the blind support for Donald Trump as an angry supporter, but a COMPLACENCY for "what happens" if you do. We preach what we do not follow, and accept change when it is convenient, not when it is needed. Not when it is logical. Not when it has evidence vs change that has no evidence. 

In the future, I recommend for my American people, as an American citizen for the first year of my life and the first year I could vote, that you take political elections seriously with as much unbias and anti-hypocrisy as you are possible. Pretend you are not a part of a registered party. Pretend you have no dramatic alienated situation for friends and family, connected to immigration and societal norms (homosexuality, Christianity, gender, etc). Vote for what you think is right, as an individual.

Be educated. As an individual. Not pressured by those around you. Do not flock to people because others tell you should have "patriotism" and "loyalty" to your party, faith, and gentleman/ladylike standard. No race, religion, gender, nationality, etc. defines you. You define you.

Who do you vote for?

And if so, that person will reign you for so long. If not, I recommend you reign yourself and research, analyze, and study why and how you came to be, to elect who you want America to be next time.

And accept those consequences. Or step up, and do something when it does not go your way. Inevitably.

That is what Trump supporters AND Hillary supporters have done, and no matter how momentous this election was, I am proud of both sides.
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7/21/16



By the way, Deviant Art does not take copyright infringement very seriously. One day, I will make a new art website for you guys, one that does take copyright infringement more seriously and investigates, not just waits. We have to look out for each other. Until then, wait until I put it all together (when DA pisses me off enough, and I leave this place to either create a website rival or become an ice cream truck technician, or muffin taster).

Also, I found out my university does not do triple majors. Like, that's unheard of. I looked at my adviser with the most judgmental look like, "This university....has never had a student triple major? Or more like...you never let a student triple major?"

So I guess I will deal with a...*sighs annoyingly* double major instead.

Also, I am looking at an Art (Studio Art) and Political Science degree afterwards. If anyone has acquired any of those degrees, give me some potential tips. Like "Get ready to not see friends for weeks because all you're doing is writing papers," or "You are going to procrastinate in the last week to do your large capstone art project" or "Why did you even want to major in Political Science and Art?"

I think many years down the line, you may ask yourself this:

What did it ever hurt?

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I reached the size limit for my last RANT 2 journal post. So here is RANT 3 journal.

Star! I dislike having multiple journal entries for each thought. I update "Rants" on one journal entry, mi amigos. Star! 


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